All these whiles you're just lying to me .

I really feel like blogging alot now !
I wanna write all of my feelings out .
Sigh , I really don't know whats happening lah ,
you can choose whether to read this entry or not ,
but if you just wanna give stupid comments about it after that , please shoo off !

I really don't know , what's the reason ,
why must he do all these to me !
All those tears I had been shedding for him ,
are really NOT WORTH at all .
But I just can't control my emotions ,
only crying could solve all my problems .
I'm so foolish , so silly and so stupid !
To trust every single word that he told me .
I'm really foolish enough to trust him so much .
My tears just kept rolling and rolling down ,
I can't stop crying .
I lost control of everything , I just wanna die .
I hate my life , it suck totally !
I feel so weak , nobody's there for me at all whenever I'm feeling down .
Perhaps , no one had ever try to understand how I felt ,
I'm destined to be alone for the whole of my life .
I just can't stay strong without you ,
the last goodbye you said to me , just hurts so much .
Seeing you leaving , the scar in my heart just gets deeper & deeper .
I'm sick and tired of all these stuffs already ,
I don't wanna end everything .
I always thought that it's worth to do everything just for you ,
sacrificing for you and so on .
Perhaps now I won't even dare to think about it ,
you never even seemed to care .
Forget it , maybe I'm just a girl who should be unwanted for the rest of a life .
How could I live without you ?
You're just not there for me when I needed you the most ,
you treated my words as craps & rubbish .
I really can't hold on anymore ,
I had enough for pretending .
All those fake smiles that I had gave , I had enough !
I just wanted you to stay happy , don't ever end up like me .
Such an useless bitch I am , should not even be existing in this fucking world .
I really have no energy to type furthermore ,
prove to me that you're the only one who's worth for my love if you want .
But if you choose to end everything , I can't do anything too .
Why must you ever do this to me ! Why can't all these just stop .
You won't understand how much it hurts inside ,
the pain , and everything else .
You will never understand , forget it .
I know that I'm annoying & irritating enough ,
friends are more important than me . Go ahead & be with them .
Maybe it's better to be alone yeah ? I don't know .
The last goodbye you told me , may be the last word that I'll hear from you .
And the last kiss you gave me , will always be remembered deep in my mind .
I won't let go no matter what happen , I just wanna tell you .
Boy , I truly love you alot . Believe it or not , it's up to you . I'm serious .

No mood to reply tags & write happenings .
Bye .